Another chance in life

Today We had been in a vehicular accident. I just want to thank God that despite us being in collision with other cars, we havent gotten any bruises from it.

On My Own

There is one song from the broadway musical Les Miserables that I really like. As a matter of fact, I can relate to that song this very moment. I'd like to share it with you:

On my own
Pretending he's beside me
All alone I walked with him 'til morning
Without him I feel his arms around me
And when I lose my way I close my eyes and he has found me

In the rain
The pavement shines like silver
And the lights are misty in the river
In the darkness the trees are full of starlight
And all I see is him and me forever and forever

And I know
It's only in my mind
That I'm talking to myself and not to him
And although I know that he is blind
Still I say there's a way for us

I love him
But when the night is over
He is gone the river is just a river
Without him the world around me changes
The trees are bare and everywhere the streets are full of strangers

I love him
But everyday I'm learning
All my life I've only been pretending
Without me his world would go on turning
The world is full of happiness that I have never known

I love him..
I love him..
I love him... but only on my own.....

Things I hate in you

I hate a lot of things about you.
I hate it when you are sweet and then you get cold.
I hate it when you are fun and then get serious.
I hate it when you smile and then frown.
I hate it when you are there for me and then leave me hanging.
I hate it when you share your secrets but then keep some secrets.
I hate it when you make me feel jealous yet i pushed you to find the right girl.
I hate it when i get so possessive of you because i thought i know you better.
I hate it when you hurt me but still i forgive you.
I hate you when I am so selfish coz i wanted your full attention.
I hate you when I can't express my feelings towards you coz you may take it the wrong way.
I hate you when you dont feel how special and important you are to me.
But I hate you most when despite that I hate a lot of things in you, i care and love you.
Though knowing you wont reciprocate the same affection, still i continue to love what i hate about you.

Panic Room

I attended a meeting with the client a few hours back. And guess what, I had heard the greatest news.

A few of the client resents the idea of having to work with us. They are unwilling to share whatever knowledge they have. I feel pressured and panicked upon knowing that the project i am working on requires a skill i dont have. Now, i cancelled attending a send-off party for a previous team mate and opted to go to the bookstore to buy a book. Hopefully i can learn as much as i can with a short span of time.

Wish me luck!

Sleeping Beauty

It's been 5 days since I left the Philippines. I still feel the effect of the jetlag. I still feel sleepy and drowsy during the afternoons. My body has not yet adapted the time difference. It's a bit embarrassing because sometimes I catch myself drooping to slumber.

I just hope by next week, i am revived and this jetlag has been overcomed.

Wishful Thinking

Sometimes I do hope
That to the truth I can cope
Really wanted to say
But a lot is on my way
Emotions are at stake
Consequences I cant take

Sometimes I wonder
If feelings can grow more fonder
Not only on my side
But with that person beside
Unsure if that person knows not
That I fell and went nut

Sometimes I wish for you to see
That things are not as it used to be
Changes continuously have been made
Good bye I would like to bade
To a friendship that is so wonderful
Just to have a life with you so full

Leaving on a jet plane

In a few hours I will be boarding the plane for Milwaukee. I am leaving with a heavy heart not only because of the family i'll leave behind but also the friends I learned to love. This will be the longest time i'll be far away from home.

I would have been happier if my friend had push through with his idea to see me off. I would have felt important that he took a lot of effort just to say good bye. I guess it would have been an awkward situation for the both of us.

A few hours and counting, I just finished packing my stuffs. I have 3 luggages to bring plus 1 small bag for my passport and ticket. I think I'll catch a few hours sleep... 'Til then.. good night to myself

Nothing

I just felt like writing nothing. Just so to have an entry for this day, I am writing something incomprehensible even for me as the writer. I guess I can't collect my thoughts right at the moment. Something must be bothering me. I now notice that I dont really have a subject to begin with. Oh well, life's like that. Sometimes you yourself sucks!

When Cupid meets Stupid

Yesterday, I have had my hair cut and treated. The beautician gave me a magazine to read while awaiting my hair treatment to be finished. I saw one article that made my interest sky-high. It was entitled When Cupid meets Stupid......

This particular day, I was the stupid that cupid had met. Why i said that? Well, Cupid may have hit his arrows wrongly at me and yet I was foolish enough to ask someone one stupid question. A question that might cast a doubt over the comfortable friendship we have. How I wish I could take those questions back. Talk about being tactless and a fool.

A friend once showed me this message. For whatever reason I'd like to post it:
Don't be too sweet coz I might miss you
Don't be too good coz I might care for you
Don't be too caring coz I might fall for you....
It would be hard for me to fall if you won't love me after all.