Mabuhay!

Mabuhay! ... A word of welcome in the Philippines. After having stayed in the US for 2 months, I now hear the familiar jargon.

Mabuhay! How lovely it is to hear. How welcome and reassuring the feeling is among your own people. How truly at home I am now for being where I belong.

Mabuhay!

Mixed Emotions

Have you ever been in a situation where you were happy but at the same time sad? How about excited for that day to come but dreading it to come? What is the term...Ironic or paradoxic?

Right now, I am excited, elated, truly happy to go home and see my family after 2 months in exile. Don't get me wrong.. exiled in a sense that I was sent away from home. But I also feel sad, i dread to see my last day from exile to come. I wanted to stay more but I also wanted to go home. I wanted to see a lot more from country of dreams (USA) but I miss my homeland (Philippines). I seem so timid and shy around my co-workers but I enjoyed their company and frankness and cool attitude.

There is something more I would like to write about how I feel but I seem not able to find the words that can encompass how I truly feel. I am enamored of this country (USA) for the fulfillment of my dreams but I must get back to reality. The reality to go back to where I truly belong...